The suddenness of Remus' appearance and outburst shut Sirius up and allowed himself to be dragged limply while Remus apologized (apologized, for fuck's sake, holding his hand all the while like he was a belligerent child) and dragged him off to give him a talking to.
He was so shocked (somewhere between infuriated that Remus would treat him this way and embarrassed that he'd been caught defending Remus, which in turn infuriated him more because why the hell shouldn't he be defending Remus?) that he didn't try to speak up as Remus gave him as close to a shouting at as he'd ever seen Remus give him. He glared, but his expression softened into a sulk when he saw the way Remus' hands shook. Impulsively, he reached out, and held them still for a second in between his palms.
"I hate Snape," he said dully. "I wish I could've done something to help." He glanced away from Remus for a second. "You never let me help," he muttered resentfully. He felt stupid for getting so carried away with Snape, and he was so tired of always feeling stupid and useless.
He sighed when Remus spoke again, and let Remus' hands go free when he pulled them away, holding one out in front of Sirius to stop any further objections. Sirius was surprised to see his normally composed friend become undone, but he didn't mistake the slight stammer in Remus' speech. The idea that someone cared about him filled him with warmth, and he found he couldn't be angry with Remus. He had wanted to stay angry this time, and instead he felt hollow and disgusted with himself and resentful.
"Damn right I'd say that," he muttered. "Remus, you lied to me. Every day. I can't fucking stand it when you--"
That intense gaze caught him completely off guard, and something caught in his throat. He shut his mouth, and when Remus finished, he merely nodded.
"Okay," he said, after a few seconds pause. "Okay. But I'm just going to go and get a bite or something, right?" He nodded again and stepped away from Remus. "Just stay away from that git for me, will you?" he added because it seemed somehow necessary.
He turned his back and walked away, feeling somehow shaken. How long had Remus had hazel eyes?
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Date: 2006-08-08 04:59 am (UTC)He was so shocked (somewhere between infuriated that Remus would treat him this way and embarrassed that he'd been caught defending Remus, which in turn infuriated him more because why the hell shouldn't he be defending Remus?) that he didn't try to speak up as Remus gave him as close to a shouting at as he'd ever seen Remus give him. He glared, but his expression softened into a sulk when he saw the way Remus' hands shook. Impulsively, he reached out, and held them still for a second in between his palms.
"I hate Snape," he said dully. "I wish I could've done something to help." He glanced away from Remus for a second. "You never let me help," he muttered resentfully. He felt stupid for getting so carried away with Snape, and he was so tired of always feeling stupid and useless.
He sighed when Remus spoke again, and let Remus' hands go free when he pulled them away, holding one out in front of Sirius to stop any further objections. Sirius was surprised to see his normally composed friend become undone, but he didn't mistake the slight stammer in Remus' speech. The idea that someone cared about him filled him with warmth, and he found he couldn't be angry with Remus. He had wanted to stay angry this time, and instead he felt hollow and disgusted with himself and resentful.
"Damn right I'd say that," he muttered. "Remus, you lied to me. Every day. I can't fucking stand it when you--"
That intense gaze caught him completely off guard, and something caught in his throat. He shut his mouth, and when Remus finished, he merely nodded.
"Okay," he said, after a few seconds pause. "Okay. But I'm just going to go and get a bite or something, right?" He nodded again and stepped away from Remus. "Just stay away from that git for me, will you?" he added because it seemed somehow necessary.
He turned his back and walked away, feeling somehow shaken. How long had Remus had hazel eyes?