The message was clear in her mind: anything she said wouldn't make a blind bit of difference. It made sense.
Inside, she was thinking at a ferocious pace. I completely and utterly lost it. I shouldn't have done - shouldn't have launched into an attack without thinking. Defence, sure, but not to attack someone. And it was so stupid. It was years ago, and what difference did it make? None at all: I'm here, back again. Or at least - I was here, given I'll probably have to leave now. It's stupid... I knew Adam trusted me - all of us - to behave here. But I'm not used to it - people don't trust War. People run away and scream... except here. Odds bobs, I had friends here, more or less. And now I blew it. Well, way to go, Scarlett. You've just uprooted yourself, and you're an idiot for it, even if it isn't for the first time.
All she said was, "I know," and bit the inside of her lip.
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Inside, she was thinking at a ferocious pace.
I completely and utterly lost it. I shouldn't have done - shouldn't have launched into an attack without thinking. Defence, sure, but not to attack someone. And it was so stupid. It was years ago, and what difference did it make? None at all: I'm here, back again. Or at least - I was here, given I'll probably have to leave now. It's stupid... I knew Adam trusted me - all of us - to behave here. But I'm not used to it - people don't trust War. People run away and scream... except here. Odds bobs, I had friends here, more or less. And now I blew it. Well, way to go, Scarlett. You've just uprooted yourself, and you're an idiot for it, even if it isn't for the first time.
All she said was, "I know," and bit the inside of her lip.