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Date: January 23, 2000
Setting: Michael's Room
Status: John, Raphael, Michael, Adam, Gabriel (Semi-Private, Complete)
Summary: John vents his feelings at Raphael. Mayhem ensues. (Continued from here.)
It was a pretty decent plan, John thought. Find Raphael, get him away from his oaf of a bodyguard by whatever means presented itself, and teach the little rat a lesson he'd never forget. He liked it. It was elegant in its simplicity.
The fact that it included no provisions for ensuring his own safety (or survival) in the event that Michael proved less easily hoodwinked this time than last--or that Raphael unexpectedly grew himself a pair--he considered a minor flaw. He was too hacked off at the moment to think that far ahead.*
He found Raphael's room unoccupied and proceeded to Michael's, ducked momentarily down a side-hall to avoid a frustrated-looking Snob along the way (hadn't that damn fool got things sorted out with Belial yet?) and strode up to the door, knocking sharply before he could think better of what he was doing.
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*Anyway, his most clever, complicated schemes always seemed to lead him into worse trouble in the long run. If things were going to go pear-shaped, they might just as well go pear-shaped straightaway and get it over with.
Setting: Michael's Room
Status: John, Raphael, Michael, Adam, Gabriel (Semi-Private, Complete)
Summary: John vents his feelings at Raphael. Mayhem ensues. (Continued from here.)
It was a pretty decent plan, John thought. Find Raphael, get him away from his oaf of a bodyguard by whatever means presented itself, and teach the little rat a lesson he'd never forget. He liked it. It was elegant in its simplicity.
The fact that it included no provisions for ensuring his own safety (or survival) in the event that Michael proved less easily hoodwinked this time than last--or that Raphael unexpectedly grew himself a pair--he considered a minor flaw. He was too hacked off at the moment to think that far ahead.*
He found Raphael's room unoccupied and proceeded to Michael's, ducked momentarily down a side-hall to avoid a frustrated-looking Snob along the way (hadn't that damn fool got things sorted out with Belial yet?) and strode up to the door, knocking sharply before he could think better of what he was doing.
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*Anyway, his most clever, complicated schemes always seemed to lead him into worse trouble in the long run. If things were going to go pear-shaped, they might just as well go pear-shaped straightaway and get it over with.
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"Not that I don't still love you just as much, or more," he hastied to add. "It's just that... I don't understand you anymore, Raphael. You are... different. The Raphael I used to know would have never attacked anyone, would have never considered using a gun, would have never called Uriel annoying, even, although he often is. Something has changed in you -- perhaps it's because of this Manor, perhaps for other reasons, I don't know -- and I don't understand a thing."
With another sigh, he continued, "And now you are telling I should be careful, shouldn't trust, not even you. But if that is the case, then what can I do?" He grimaced a bit. "I'm not smart, Raphael, and I know that. Thinking and logic was never my strength. I take things as I see them; I can't figure out hidden meanings or masked truth. And now... I simply don't understand what is going on. Something is, I know that, but what? If it isn't something I can hit, I don't know what to do about it." He chuckled sadly. "See? I'm absolutely useless. Why you even stand me around is beyond me."
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Raphael bit his lip and thought about Michael's less desirable traits and how much they repulsed him. Or at least did. They still did - didn't they? He thought of how he put up with those traits to use him.
Suddenly, he felt very sick.
"I... I don't deserve you," he replied quietly. "Intelligence isn't everything. You... you have a good soul. And me... I... I mean...
I pulled a gun on a human. I feel like I'm having a breakdown. I don't understand myself, I act without thinking things through, act selfishly, act like an angel shouldn't and I can't give a good reason why.
Maybe... Maybe you should stay away from me," he suggested in a whisper.
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He looked the other angel in the eye, silently challenging Raphael to tell him to leave. At the same time he sincerely, desperately hoped that he wouldn't hear it, that he never would have to leave his dear, beloved Raphael.
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Then fear coiled in his stomach and he pulled Michael into a kiss.
"I don't want you to leave," he told Michael. "Not at all."
Or at least not just yet...
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Pushing such thoughts out of his mind, he dropped away, laid down and closed his eyes.
"Lay with me?" He asked as he tried to drift away.
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Slowly he started to fall asleep, feeling safe and comfortable, leaving his fears behind in the world of waking.
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