"Stop it," Raphael replied coldly. "Just stop. Stop acting like I'm some kind of child. Stop acting like I haven't known anything for six thousand years. Stop acting like I'm stupid.
Just stop.
Yes, I got caught off guard regarding my fellow angels. Well it's not as though I spent a lot of time around them, on Heaven or on earth. Down here I've always had my own business to attend to, up there I've had my own difficulties to work on and deal with. And I've never had a lot of time to waste 'making an effort' nor did I ever see why I should expose myself to that. 'I got to be innocent, welcome to the club...' do you want to condescend a little more?"
Frankie came and he threw the stick even farther away.
"I deal with humans or mostly humans. Not other immortals - at least not often. So yes, maybe I was unknowing. And I'm still not good at dealing with any of them. But innocent? Don't be ridiculous.
The attitudes I have, most of them, have been around for years. This places just seems to... bring them out. I know what demonic is too and you are careless if you think every demon is about the devouring of flesh. And while there is a discrimination between high level and low level, a demon is a demon and there is a thing called subtlety. Perhaps you trust Crowley; perhaps you have a reason to.
I don't. On both counts."
When Frankie returned again Raphael knelt and petted him but did not throw the stick again.
"You say that nobody here wants me dead, with the exception of a couple, and perhaps thats true. But I'm not ignorant. Tell me - is there a betting pool already about when I'm going to Fall? I wouldn't be surprised. Maybe nobody wants me dead; but I'm increasingly doubtful that there are people who would would mind it. The only one I know at this house who is firmly on my side is Michael and that's because, well... he's himself. And I can't depend on even his defence, not really.
If I did not have to I would not be here - and don't criticize me for obeying. If you say that nobody wants me hurt then don't act like I'm deluded because disobedience is a surefire way to get expelled. But as far as I'm concerned, if Adam can't keep everything out, why bother staying in a place where I have no one to talk to and loathe many of the residents?
At least I can have a conversation at Stephen's; and his wards are extremely good. Besides - I know I can trust him.
Not like some here."
Frankie whined at his side and rubbed affectionately against his leg.
no subject
Just stop.
Yes, I got caught off guard regarding my fellow angels. Well it's not as though I spent a lot of time around them, on Heaven or on earth. Down here I've always had my own business to attend to, up there I've had my own difficulties to work on and deal with. And I've never had a lot of time to waste 'making an effort' nor did I ever see why I should expose myself to that. 'I got to be innocent, welcome to the club...' do you want to condescend a little more?"
Frankie came and he threw the stick even farther away.
"I deal with humans or mostly humans. Not other immortals - at least not often. So yes, maybe I was unknowing. And I'm still not good at dealing with any of them. But innocent? Don't be ridiculous.
The attitudes I have, most of them, have been around for years. This places just seems to... bring them out. I know what demonic is too and you are careless if you think every demon is about the devouring of flesh. And while there is a discrimination between high level and low level, a demon is a demon and there is a thing called subtlety. Perhaps you trust Crowley; perhaps you have a reason to.
I don't. On both counts."
When Frankie returned again Raphael knelt and petted him but did not throw the stick again.
"You say that nobody here wants me dead, with the exception of a couple, and perhaps thats true. But I'm not ignorant. Tell me - is there a betting pool already about when I'm going to Fall? I wouldn't be surprised. Maybe nobody wants me dead; but I'm increasingly doubtful that there are people who would would mind it. The only one I know at this house who is firmly on my side is Michael and that's because, well... he's himself. And I can't depend on even his defence, not really.
If I did not have to I would not be here - and don't criticize me for obeying. If you say that nobody wants me hurt then don't act like I'm deluded because disobedience is a surefire way to get expelled. But as far as I'm concerned, if Adam can't keep everything out, why bother staying in a place where I have no one to talk to and loathe many of the residents?
At least I can have a conversation at Stephen's; and his wards are extremely good. Besides - I know I can trust him.
Not like some here."
Frankie whined at his side and rubbed affectionately against his leg.