Raphael was nervous, afraid that he'd betrayed himself, his stomach doing flips as he wondered how far he'd have to go and how much trouble he would be in if Michael found out. He was being utterly duplicitious...

But better to be in danger with a guard than not.

He just needed to make sure he kept it up, pulled him in, did whatever it took... to a point, of course, at least at first.

"I want to sleep with you beside me," he said, closing his eyes and rubbing Michael affectionately. "I want you to hold me, whisper me to sleep, be there when I wake up...

I want to be safe in your arms," he said, opening his eyes then reaching up and touching Michael's face.