"Maybe I thought you'd have answers." Then he said more quietly, "Or at least an answer I wanted." He looked at him, frowning. "And is that all there is? Questioning doesn't mean I don't love Him. And it's not even doing anything, really. You speak with disdain about thinking things are black and white - but then you yourself say there is only angel and demon!" He paused. "And I'm stronger than you think!" He stated stubbornly. "I am a good surgeon, even when things are problematic. You barely know me - so don't judge my abilities."

He sighed then looked at Crowley curiously.

"If I have not Fallen, how could I know? And if you don't ally yourself with him, then whom? Yourself? And if that's so - that you aren't truly loyal - isn't that defiance? Of a sort."