Raphael stumbled backwards to the bed, his eyes red and glassy from alcohol and emotion.
"I'm good. I'm obedient. We are supposed to care for humans! Maybe my actions are the way things are supposed to be. The plan is only known fully to him - maybe I am following it!"
His throat felt dry and constricted.
"And Uriel wouldn't do that. He wouldn't Fell me. He has no reason to. I do not..." He trailed off and grew silent.
Did he doubt?
"I will not Fall," he reaffirmed, and clambered back on to the bed, exhuasted with darkness tingling at the edges of his vision.
He shivered without being cold and continued to repeat the mantra "I will not Fall, I will not Fall," over and over, trying to make himself believe it.
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"I'm good. I'm obedient. We are supposed to care for humans! Maybe my actions are the way things are supposed to be. The plan is only known fully to him - maybe I am following it!"
His throat felt dry and constricted.
"And Uriel wouldn't do that. He wouldn't Fell me. He has no reason to. I do not..." He trailed off and grew silent.
Did he doubt?
"I will not Fall," he reaffirmed, and clambered back on to the bed, exhuasted with darkness tingling at the edges of his vision.
He shivered without being cold and continued to repeat the mantra "I will not Fall, I will not Fall," over and over, trying to make himself believe it.