"Right then," said Sirius, taking a bigger sip of tea than he'd intended to. The hot tea scalds his tongue a little, and it feels numb in his mouth. He puts the cup down. "I suppose it all started back when we were just kids-- I don't know how much you know about the wizarding world or anything, but we've had horrible wars and my family's always been on the wrong side. I never got on with them much, so when I started school, my friends became my new family. I mean James, and Remus too, I suppose, were more my brothers than my real brothers, and maybe I was even like that with Peter once."
He sighed, and paused, thinking of his friends when they were young. He actually can't remember caring about Peter in the same way he'd cared for Remus and James, and he wondered if this was another failing on his part. For all that they'd teased him, excluded him, made him feel small at times, Sirius was certain James and Remus had loved Peter. Maybe it was someone his parents fault, that it was so hard for him to love people (and even when he did love people, he usually managed to fuck it up).
"Anyways, Remus, he, erm," Sirius paused, not sure what to do here. Does Aziraphale already know? Would Remus even mind anymore? "Listen, you can't tell anyone about this part or treat him any differently. Not that I thought you would," he added quickly, "but he just...I'm not sure how he'd feel about me, I don't know."
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Date: 2006-09-19 04:34 am (UTC)He sighed, and paused, thinking of his friends when they were young. He actually can't remember caring about Peter in the same way he'd cared for Remus and James, and he wondered if this was another failing on his part. For all that they'd teased him, excluded him, made him feel small at times, Sirius was certain James and Remus had loved Peter. Maybe it was someone his parents fault, that it was so hard for him to love people (and even when he did love people, he usually managed to fuck it up).
"Anyways, Remus, he, erm," Sirius paused, not sure what to do here. Does Aziraphale already know? Would Remus even mind anymore? "Listen, you can't tell anyone about this part or treat him any differently. Not that I thought you would," he added quickly, "but he just...I'm not sure how he'd feel about me, I don't know."